I haven't talked here about having another baby too often, but it's been a topic of conversation for a few years. Whenever Phil and I have talk about it, the discussion disintegrated into a mini argument. We'd go around in circles not really getting anywhere. The baby talk has brought up a lot of issues. Some are things that have always been speed bumps in our marriage that flare up every few years but there have also been a few new things that have developed since I've started getting serious about the blog.
It's been frustrating for both us of not being on the same page. In the end I think we both raised the white flag and agreed to permanently disagree. Phil got a vasectomy three weeks ago. I called Deb the morning of the surgery and tried not to cry. Since then I've had good days and bad. I mentally go over the pros and cons and Phil and I still talk about the "what if's" and the "maybe's."
I don't know if this was the right decision for us and I may never know. I know we needed to get out of the limbo we've been in. This has been hanging over our heads since we bought our house (probably before). It's hard to be present in and love the life you do have when you're constantly wondering about the life you could have.
X's and Y's
Friday, May 29, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
The Odyssey spans 7.5 acres and I'm sure I walked all of them. Much thanks to my husband and Deb's husband, The Rock, for wrangling the children while we
I can't remember where Jenn and Bridget were when we took this picture, but they were there too. It was nice to get together with the girls!
Tyler and Toots (Deb's daughter, who has decided Tyler is her brother) got his and hers Grim Reaper tattoos. (sorry, Deb!)
Everyone got super cute bags to take home with one of the best pieces of swag ever: a picture frame made of real elephant poo!
Thanks so much to Drew and the zoo for the invitation!
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blog friends,
Elephant Odyssey,
family time,
San Diego Zoo
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Scene: The family is outside their home enjoying the late afternoon sun. Mother and father are seated in lawn chairs. Son has been riding his bike up and down the cul de sac, but stops to take a break.
Tyler: "I'm hot."
Phil: "I know something that will cool you off."
[Mother can tell by the tone in Father's voice that something bad is about to happen and thinks "this oughta be good."]
Tyler: What?
Phil: "Run down the street as fast as you can and the breeze will cool you off."
Tyler: [hands on hips] "That doesn't make sense."
Phil: "Sure it does, the faster you run, the cooler you'll get."
[Mother looks at son with pleading eyes and thinks, "c'mon kiddo, don't fall for it." Child shrugs shoulders and takes off running. Father laughs hysterically. Mother scowls at him.]
Phil: "What?" [still laughing]
Me: "That wasn't very nice."
Phil: "I was teaching him a lesson."
Me: "What? That his dad is jerk?"
Phil: "No, a lesson in physics."
Tyler: [yelling, voice fades as he gets farther down the street] "I can't feeel anyyythinggggg."
Father is still laughing hysterically at his own joke.
Phil: "My stomach hurts."
Labels:
cute stuff,
DS,
family time
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
I'm sorry I've been absent. I've sat down at the computer several times this week and nothing I've tried to post has come out readable. Today I've been going back and forth between my mortgage company and the county tax office. I'm so frustrated and I cried a little while talking to either the third or fourth person, I can't remember.
Anyway, I needed a little pick me up. And I got one in my email. Disney offered me a scholarship to BlogHer! I'm so excited! Our mortgage situation has me a little stressed about the conference. I've wondered whether I should bow out, find a way to make it up to my sponsors and look ahead to next year. But now I have some breathing room.
The relationship I have with Disney is so important to me. I'm so happy to be a part of their blog family. Leanne and Laura, thank you so much. I'm so grateful!
Anyway, I needed a little pick me up. And I got one in my email. Disney offered me a scholarship to BlogHer! I'm so excited! Our mortgage situation has me a little stressed about the conference. I've wondered whether I should bow out, find a way to make it up to my sponsors and look ahead to next year. But now I have some breathing room.
The relationship I have with Disney is so important to me. I'm so happy to be a part of their blog family. Leanne and Laura, thank you so much. I'm so grateful!
Labels:
BlogHer 2009,
Disney Mom Blogger Mixer,
Disneyworld
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